I've been talking to this guy that I met on okcupid (I made another account, because I, like men, am stupid), he was actually the first guy to message me. He seems really nice, and funny, and I THINK that he likes me. Here's why:
1) He calls me katy lady (nicknames are good, right?)
2) We text EVERY DAY. After he didn't text me for 2 days, one of which was Christmas (who expects a text from an almost complete stranger on fucking x-mas?!) he texted and APOLOGIZED for not texting because he forgot his phone.
3) he's called me cute and awesome...not in the last couple days though...
4) he doesn't have casual sex OR short-term dating on his wants from okcupid, so IF he doesn't like me, sex is NOT the reason...I don't think.
THIS is why I think he DOESN'T like me:
1) When I get on okcupid, and he's on, it shows he's on, and that I can talk to him, but then after a few minutes (I'm assuming after he's noticed that I'M on) he goes into hidden/can't chat mode.
2) It just doesn't seem like he really WANTS to talk to me half the time.../ I'm crazy.
I guess I have more reasons to think he likes me than I have to think he doesn't, and my EXCEEDINGLY low self-esteem isn't helping. And him not wanting to talk to me EVERY SINGLE DAY about nothing in particular isn't exactly a sign that he doesn't like ME... But I've only seriously dated two guys. Both of them HATED talking to me every day, and both of them broke up with me in REALLY DASTARDLY ways. Like...if I thought murder was okay, they'd be dead... many, many, MANY times. ...fuckers.
But this guy seems nice. Maybe I should just back off? But I don't want him to think I don't LIKE him. And he's leaving the state in a couple days.
I don't even know WHY I'm obsessing like this. I ALWAYS do this, and I don't even know WHY. It's not like I have anything to talk about. It's not like we've been dating for forever and I feel like I'm never going to see him again, or actually have a REASON to sink my claws in like a cat hovering over a bathtub...
I just don't often talk to guys that I like who actually want anything to do with me... Let alone guys who actually seem NICE... I guess I'll have to give him space, yeah? If he wants to talk to me, he will...
But we don't even have SERIOUS conversations. I don't know ANYTHING about him, he knows about the same about me. All we do is text and joke about silly shit for about 5-10 exchanges. I'm on okcupid right now, he could TOTALLY be talking to me now, but he's not. And he can see that I'm on...'cause I can see that he's on, and it was even on the main screen before he went into "radio silence" so to speak...
He doesn't want to talk to me. I should just delete my profile and not look back. I shouldn't feel so terrible about a guy I wouldn't be able to even meet until May, not wanting to text me about nothing.
Why couldn't I have been born a cheerleader...?
